Working

It's kind of difficult getting back into a working schedule that's not your own. Whatever. I have to do what I have to do to get to where I want to be.  That's another post. Maybe tomorrow. Anyway, I'm determined to do this face challenge, so here are the latest. I want to concentrate on male faces, again. Practice makes you better. Plus, I have to fill up these old sketchbooks. This was one I had in high school. Yeah! That was a long time ago and it's still not filled. This one is 5.5" by 8.5". Bigger than the tiny book.

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29 Faces

29 Faces is doing a challenge for the month of September. I did a face yesterday but didn't post, so here it is with today's face. Still working on filling existing sketchbooks and this one is tiny (3.5 inches by 4.25 inches) so you see a part of my finger.

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September

Yes, it's September. A new month. Not even through with the first day when i get news that my apartment rent will go up by 30 bucks. I didn't take it well at first but I guess everyone has to make money. It did take me a couple of hours to think about and reevaluate things and I'm still here.

I've decided to be positive because we all know that stuff happens to throw you off your course. I have a new plan and will make it work because I believe that it will get me out of my present situation. I still have a few hours in this first day of the new month and instead of sitting around thinking that nothing is working out. Which is very easy to do. I will take action to get to where I want. Forget naysayers, namely me, and forge ahead. Become a bull in a china shop. It's my life. I want to live it well. First I believe. Second, I take action. Everyday. And once in awhile reward myself. I like this quote from Anthony Robbins.

Today is not like yesterday.

And tomorrow will be different forever.

I will keep going. A bit more focused now. And I will be a bit more nicer to me. I keep forgetting to do that.

New Stuff

I colored in my adult coloring book the other day because it does soothe me and helps me to relax. I need to do it more often. A friend sent this to me one Christmas and like I said, it helps to calm me down. I have to remember I have it. This book is Enchanted Forest by Johanna Basford.

 I also finished off two of my latest preemie quilts by stitching down the binding and putting on quilt labels. These are 36 inches by 36 inches.

Mercury

Yes, Mercury. Which is not in retrograde. I was wondering why I was losing my mind over the past month. Forgetting things, not wanting to do anything, crying, feeling agitated. I just couldn't put my finger on it. It felt like there was a mini monkey pulling out parts of my brain. I was in bad shape and I wanted to crawl under a rock and die or find the nearest bridge. It wasn't until I happened across an article on Facebook that talked about Mercury cruising into retrograde. What? I read the article.

http://galadarling.com/article/how-to-survive-mercury-retrograde/

I couldn't believe what I was reading. The symptoms, the craziness, the feeling discombobulated. Because of this planet. I went back to my journal and found when the problems started to come around. Right when Mercury was making it's journey. I know a lot of folks don't believe in this but for me, there's something to it. And once the planet was in retrograde it was like nothing had happened. I could think clearly, my emotions were in check, I could breathe. Until next time. I will be writing down when this bugger will be doing this again, because it will before the year is out and I will be prepared. To tell myself that I'm not losing my mind, it's not me, and it will be over soon.

Now I can get back to work. Slowly but it's happening. I got my outline done for my NANO escapade this November. I will succeed this year with my 50,000 words. Onward.

Mountains

Wow! I haven't been on in awhile. Geesh! I do apologize but life was happening. I did manage a road trip with a writing friend, Donalee. Thank goodness she's got a Prius. Gas was next to nothing so I bought her lunch. We went to Marshall, NC. What a cool little town on the French Broad River. Population 900. Yes, I'm in love. I will have to go back. It's right in the mountains.

The skies opened up before we went to have lunch. Boy did it pour. It was nice and refreshing.

This shot was taken from the island in the middle of the river.

That's the City Hall building. This little town is the County Seat.

Plot Twist!

I remember a meme on Facebook that said something like if things go wrong , pick yourself up and say, "Plot twist!" Like you planned for this and know what to do to keep going. Yeah. That's what I'm feeling now. This hasn't been the greatest year. I know there are still a few months left to go but I have no idea what's going on. Going wrong. Whatever. I'm treading water and that makes me crazy. I've had so many truck problems that I don't even want to dream anymore. I'm bleeding funds. My poor truck it 18 years old with over 200,000 miles clocked on it. It's been through a lot. Gotten me to a lot of places. So in that respect, it's a good thing. A good vehicle. But just when I'm trying to do things and go places, he just decides to break down. So far this year, brakes, new starter, and just this week a new radiator. I'm getting to the point where I ask myself how much more money do I want to put into the little guy? But I've got to get some fundage saved up to get a new/used one. It's going to hurt so much to have a car payment each month.

Gah!!!!!!

Oh well, such is life. I'm feeling a bit numb right now. It seems whatever I attempt to do doesn't work. I'm afraid to try new things that I've wanted to do for a long time now. You know, waiting for that Sword of Damocles to fall on my noggin. I almost passed out from heat exhaustion. Even with all the humidity in the air my skin is so dry. I feel like a paper doll left in the desert. I haven't been able to walk because of the weather. It feels like I'm breathing through a giant wet cotton ball when I do. So I don't. I'm just trying to figure this out. What the heck is happening?

I'm slowly working to get back on the road. It's daunting. Like that sword, there are potholes, speed bumps, ditches, stinky road kill, quicksand, water under the road, trolls under bridges, fallen trees... you know where I'm going with this. But I will take a deep breath (maybe several) and take my next step. Maybe the road pixies will give me a break and cut me some slack. Just a bit.

Fall is coming. I love autumn. It's a lot cooler. I love the smell of things changing, waiting to go to sleep for winter. Waiting for the longarming to pick up. Christmas is on the horizon too. I did get a part time job to help out a bit. You do what ya gotta do.

I'm bruised and battered but I'm not giving up yet. I'm a work in progress. It's time to be good to me.