Friday, August 17, 2012

A Breakthrough!

I was still dealing with this feeling of inadequacy and worry even though I was coming out of it. I knew I had to beat whatever this is. I had been looking at several artists I follow on Facebook, many of them being very productive. I would pour over their posts to see why they were being so productive. Before getting out of bed this morning, I went over their posts again in my mind. Those who had pics of themselves were smiling. I remembered key words that they always used and came to the conclusion that...

They were having fun.

They were smiling, the words they used in their posts were light and positive. And that's were I wasn't. I was looking at making pieces in a new medium as something tedious to do because I was so worried about how I was going to pay bills. It was no longer fun. The clouds parted and I could actually breathe a bit easier. My head is a bit lighter too. I'm thinking clearer and the creative juices are flowing again. I've got to get my fun back and I believe I can continue with that in mind.

I'll have breakfast, finish my coffee, look at my little gal who needs hands and have fun. Enjoy being in the moment of creating something new. Don't worry about anything else, don't think about bills, just have fun. I am smiling again.

2 comments:

Kim said...

hooray! I am glad you are pulling out of it and soldiering on. I don't think you should beat yourself up too much though- I think the ups and downs you are experiencing are just part of your journey. It's normal that you would have times of fear and doubt when you take as large of a step as you have taken. I think the thing I admire so much about you Wendy is that you don't wallow in them for long-but rather take a look and find what works for you to come out of it. You are going to make it girl because you are too strong and talented not to :) Have a super creative weekend my friend and I hope it's filled with body parts and lots of smiling ♥

Wendy Luane Barber said...

Thanks so much Kim.

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